The boys here are definately growing up. It is hard for someone to see without knowing the boys, but we know. It is just baby steps. These boys were asked to be adults at a very young age and with no tools to do so. They have learned how to survive. I am just so proud to see the little bit of progress they make each day. Luis has just opened up so much! Here is my recap from Sunday. I can tell I am just growing up so much myself. I am learning lessons and just learning to stretch my patience a little further. I will be so excited to sit and reflect at the end of my time here and just see how everything tied in and became one huge life changing experience. \I feel like God is just opening doors and presenting challenges. I am doing things I have never known I could do. I am also learning to give up things that I dont like to give up. I cant say to much now, just because I havent been here long enough. I just know that this is going to be one amazing summer and God is just going to rock my world.
Today was refreshing- sort of- after church we were at the house for a while and I got to spend some quality time with Luis. I feel like I was back to square one with him when I arrived this summer. But today I feel like I made major progress with him, he really was sweet today. Normally he will just be mean and call me malo, but today he was like holding my hand and just being sweet. I was so excited about it. He was also asking why my hair was curly. Yes, my hair is struggling to stay straight- it is interesting. Around 4:00pm Andrew, JP, Krista, Lauren and I went to my aunt’s apartment and did laundry and I took a nap. I really didn’t want to go today. I would have been happier to take some quiet time at the volunteer house and then go back to the boys. I just feel bad not being available to help Caitlin and play with the boys. I feel like I should be doing more to help support her and Kristen. Caitlin tells me how happy she is that I take care of errands and the money stuff, but I just feel like I should do more. I like doing the nutrition stuff. I guess I just struggle to take time for myself, because I see how much needs to be done. It is just hard to walk away from it all. Caitlin said that she Luis and I could sit down and talk one day. I would like that. I feel like Luis is mean not to get attention but to test us, to see if we are going to abandon him. Today, I told him that with the help of Caitlin. I told him on my own that I wasn’t giving up on him. Actually, I said that no matter what he would always be my brother. I guess they just don’t frequently see real love or even know what it is. Luis told Caitlin that he had a bad heart and had guns in Haiti which he could use to do bad things to others. I have faith that while evil rules his heart right now and influences his choices now, that the evil can be made lesser and seed of love can grow larger. It is just going to take time. Every time he hits me or does something, I give him a look and a few words that convey the idea that he is wrong, but he knows that. He is testing me, like I said. I then give him a hug that he tries to escape from. Today though, he willing took hugs. Oh yeah!!! This is how it is with most of the boys though, slow progress and a lot of work to get there. Caitlin and Kristen are so amazing that they can give so much energy to these boys.
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